Archive for July, 2008


My Dew is home!!! That’s sister L’s family nickname. She came back last Friday and I am so excited. My sister, friend, best bud, confidant, & running buddy is home. At least for now. She mentions pretty much every day I talk to her about how she wants to go back to Texas and as soon as she has a job and enough money saved, she’s moving there for good. I try not to think of that part too much because it breaks my heart, but I guess if that’s what truly makes her happy, I should be supportive of her. For right now, I’m going to enjoy it. I was at a work retreat on Friday all day and half of Saturday, but she came up Friday night and we hung out for a minute before she had to make the rest of her rounds. She is the social butterfly.

Life at Nana’s is going good. So far I haven’t had any family members tell me she’s complaining about me. Yet. Probably because I’m a good granddaughter and keep the flowers watered, bring in the paper, take out the trash, help out with dinner, let the dog outside, let the dog inside, bring in the mail and keep her company. I really don’t mind it at all. I enjoy being there. A nice house with a HUGE  yard…central heat and air…and my Nana. She really is hilarious. We were watching t.v. last night and the primary elections were yesterday here in Oklahoma. One of the ladies running is rather unfortunate looking. I’m sure with just a little help she’d look like a completely different person. Anyway, I made the comment about “Isn’t she a looker?” To which Nana replies, “I bet she haunts houses on the weekend.” HOLY SHIT! I laughed forever over that one and it still makes me giggle. She just has a great sense of humor. And she’s been really sweet. Every morning she tells me to ‘have a nice day’ and is really appreciative of the things I do for her. :o) So right now it’s going alright. I’m even playing with the dog…and I’m not really a pet kind of person.

Everything else seems to be good too. Can this be the first post I’ve had where I don’t have something bad/depressing/annoying to report??? Wow!! Yeah me and for anyone who is reading this. LOL

Tomorrow is my nephew’s birthday. He’s going to be 7 and I’m thinking about buying him the Nerf N Strike Vulcan gun. It’s as badass as it sounds! It’s a basically a Nerf machine gun. It comes with a tripod and an ammo box, both removable, and it shoots 3 foam darts a second!! I think the only drawback on it is that it needs 6 D batteries!!! Holy tights Batman! Those are going to cost as much as the gun itself, but it will be totally worth it! Could it turn out that I’m more excited about it than he might be? Nah..he’s a boy with a brother to shoot. and cousins. and parents. Whahahahhahahaha….

Anyway, I need to get to work. Hope you have a great Wednesday!!!



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Overly sensitive

I’ve always been a sensitive person, but it seems like I’m overly sensitive these days. This year. It’s always been easy for me to cry and I’m the type that gets weepy over sappy commercials but I’ve usually been able to keep my tears in check. Well, I used to. Today a co-worker played a joke on me and I just teared up about it. In my defense had I known it was her, I would have laughed it off. But I immediately thought it was someone playing a mean joke on me. In her defense, I have a great sense of humor and she didn’t see the down side of it. She thought I would laugh it off. This is what happened…the other day I went into her office and sat in this chair. It made this cracking noise and then it broke. Imagine that – me breaking another chair. I didn’t know that it was already broken, so I was horrified. She brushed it off as no big deal. Well I came into my office today and there was the chair sitting in front of my desk. The chair that is normally there had been removed and the broken one was in its place. I immediately thought the worst. Chalk it up to people making fun of me my whole life. I called her into my office and she saw how upset I was and it made her feel bad. Which in turn made me feel worse….I guess we’re both a couple of sad sacks! LOL…I think we’re straightened out now – now that I know it was her, it was a funny joke. I just need to get my thick skin back and quit being so overly sensitive!

Wish I knew what it was all about???

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50 questions to kill some time…

A friend of mine had this on her blog so I thought I’d do it too…that and all the bosses are out of the office for the week so I’m goofing off. Go figure!

1. Do you like blue cheese? yuck! NO.

2. Have you ever smoked heroin? never and I don’t plan on it.

3. Do you own a gun? nope. I thought about getting one when I lived in a not-so-nice part of town, but I never did. I’ll stick with giant butcher knives.  

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? I don’t. When I was younger I would order the cherry ocean water slush or the swamp water one…but now it’s either tea, diet coke, or diet dr pepper.

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Yes. I get nervous even if I’m with a friend or sister and it’s their appointment. LOL…Maybe it’s because I feel like I should be a good and proper girl and at that time I just want to giggle and be silly??

6. What do you think of hot dogs? nothing like eating lips and ass. Just kidding. I like the all beef ones, occassionally. And then with cheese and chili.

7. Favorite Christmas Song? Oh Holy Night. It is just beautiful and Josh Groban sings it best. I actually listen to it year round.

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?  milk, juice, coke zero, water….any of those – it doesn’t matter.

9. Can you do pushups? Now that’s funny! I can ‘push up’ from the floor, but that’s about it.  

10. What kind of car do you drive? 1993 Ford Taurus…I know, I know. But hey it runs and that’s all I’m asking for right now.

11. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry? My only piece that I wear is a necklace I got for Christmas. It’s a circle necklace that says “Live, Laugh, Love” on it.

12. Favorite hobby? Photography, hands down. Sadly I read yesterday that film cameras are being phased out and that Nikon quit producing them in 2006. I love my film cameras!

13. Do you work with people who idolize you? yes. lol. What kind of question is this? I don’t know anyone, personally, who works with someone that idolizes them. But I guess it might be nice?? I don’t know.

14. Do you have A.D.D.?  no. now what were we talking about?

15. What’s one trait that you hate about yourself? feeling guilty for telling someone no or when I can’t help them out.

16. Middle name? Suzanne

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment: 1. Should I go to WW on Thursday instead of Friday because I’ll be at the Retreat all day Friday? 2. I wish Sarah would hurry up and get back from lunch so I can quit answering the phone. 3. I’m hungry.

18. Name 3 things you bought yesterday. I didn’t buy anything yesterday. Oh wait….I bought a diet coke from work.

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink. Diet coke/dr pepper/coke zero, water, tea.

20. Current worry right now? losing weight at this weeks weigh in.

21. Current hate right now? I don’t really hate anything right now.

22. Favorite place to be? with my family/friends – usually Sunday dinner-ish times or having a get together.

23. How did you bring in the New Year?  I went to Ln & Lh’s and hung out for a minute, then met Wm & Mc at Remington Park.

24. Where would you like to go? On Safari in Africa, Greece, Italy, Ireland, and Mexico. Plus I’d like to visit all 50 states and National Landmarks. I don’t want much do I?

25. Name three people who will complete this. Nope, I don’t wanna.

26. Whose answers do you want to read the most? Anybody’s.

27. What color shirt are you wearing? My red one with the low cut V neck.

28. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Why? So I can slide off into the floor? Thanks but no.

29. Can you whistle? yep. You just put your lips together and blow.

30. Favorite color(s)? red, blues, greens…

31. Would you be a pirate? aye aye matey.

32. What songs do you sing in the shower? I don’t normally sing in the shower.

33. Favorite girl’s name? Lowry Emmalyne

34. Favorite boy’s name? Jonathan Noah…I’ve loved that name since I was at least in 9th grade.

35. What’s in your pocket right now? a bunch o’ lint.

36. Last thing that made you laugh? I have laughed all day at work….talking to Shane, Dianna, Felice, and Christian. 

37. Best bed sheets as a child? I can’t really remember any right now?

38. Worst injury you’ve ever had? Hmmm…it’s a toss up between ripping my tongue open in pre-school or fracturing my ankle in 10th grade. OR falling on a mirror and damn near cutting off my leg.  

39. Do you love where you live? Yes because my family is here.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house? 3…none of them are mine.

41. Who is your loudest friend? Kristi, bless her heart. :o)

42. How many dogs do you own? None! Thank you very much.

43. Does someone have a crush on you? I wish!!!!

44. What is your favorite article of clothing? my capri jeans and a shirt.

45. What is your favorite book(s)? The Outsiders, The Stephanie Plum series, The Harry Potter books, Suzanne’s Diary for Nicholas, The Women’s Murder Club books….

46. What is your favorite candy? swiss cake rolls…it’s not a candy, but they are DAMN good!

47. What is your favorite sports team? OU Baby!!

48. What song do you want played at your funeral? “You raise me up” by Josh Groban. it’s for my family.

49. What were you doing at 12 AM last night? I had fallen asleep by that time. 

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? I have a few more minutes to lay here. 2. Is Harley in here? and 3. I hope my alarm doesn’t bother Nana….alas she did hear it today. Damn she has good hearing!

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It’s been a minute….

since I’ve written anything here. Mainly because I don’t have much to say. lol. Not a whole lot has happened since my last post. I’m pretty sure I was thisclose to accidentally overdosing on aspirin/tylenol/ibuprofen. I’ve had a pretty good tooth ache so I was taking the above mention pills and I’m pretty sure I took too many. I certainly didn’t feel good and I learned my lesson. What I need to do is find a dentist. But I’d like one that puts you to sleep while they work on your mouth. I don’t want to see the instruments they use, hear any drills, or see bits of teeth or whatever, flying out of my mouth. Nope…but I hate mouth pain. It’s probably the worst pain, or at least it rates high up there on the pain chart. I’ve recently gotten insurance at my job, so I need to get out there and find a good one. I think I may have found one here locally that seems pretty good, or at least their website says so, and they have payment plans. Which has been another deterrant for me. Money. or lack there of. The economy sucks big time, to put it mildly and gas is so close to 4 bucks a gallon that I don’t know what I’ll do when that happens. I guess continue to do without certain things so I can make it to work. Isn’t that just depressing? I don’t know the last time I treated myself to something fun. Unless you call buying groceries fun.

July 17th – This was originally written on June 12th….I need to get better at finishing these and then publishing. LOL!

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This hasn’t been the best week…but I should be happy I have my health, so far I’ve woken up every morning, and my family/friends are great. Yesterday I was telling Sister K about my day and she said “You sound like ‘Failure to Launch’.” (the movie with Matthew McConaughey and Sarah Jessica Parker) That is totally how my day was yesterday. But let’s start with the first of the week. Monday is alright, but it’s the first day that C is back at work. She’s been off for her annual two week vacay. Nice huh? Well anyway, have I ever mentioned how she hates working here? She’s just not happy anymore which in turn makes it negative in the office. She actually is a very nice person personally, but it’s time to move on. So she’s unhappy about having to come back here, it’s a little tense, but nothing more than usual. Until the afternoon…right around quitin’ time. She asked my thoughts on the gay lifestyle. I have a family member who is gay so I guess she felt I had insider information. She wanted to know what “made” them that way, how did they develop those feelings, etc. Here’s what she said her view on the whole thing is….If you’re gay it’s because of either A) you were brought up that way or, B) brainwashed into being that way, or C) you were molested at some point in your life. Then she goes on to say it’s the same as the suicide bombers. In how they are taught from birth to believe a certain way. Um, what the fuck?!?!?! You are comparing being homosexual to suicide bombers??? That’s insane but it’s also her opinion. I don’t have to like it. So anyway, she proceeds to ask me my OPINION. Which I tell her (and I’ll tell you), I believe you are born that way. And here’s my reasoning: Why would someone “pick” a lifestyle that is hated by so many people? Why would you knowingly do that, to where certain people would rather see you dead than have you walk down their street or breathe the same air as they do. Why? Sure there are some people out there that try it or whatever, but I really believe you’re born that way. Her response to my OPINION was “Oh no that’s wrong. Anyone that knows the word of God, knows that’s wrong.” Um, excuse me, how are you going to tell me that my opinion is wrong??? My friend S said she was basically setting me up for a fight. (which didn’t happen.) Had she not been a co-worker and someone I share an office with, I would have completely gotten into it with her. That being said, I finally just told her, “You’re asking the wrong person. I’m not gay so I can’t give you the answers you’re looking for.” Then I promptly left. It really pisses me off the way it turned out and to find out she’s so completely closed minded. But I know there are a TON of people in this country/universe that are not open minded to homosexuals. I get that. That’s not what made me mad. It was asking my opinion and then telling me my opinion was wrong. Next time don’t ask bitch. :o)

Tuesday was alright…a little strained at work, probably from both sides, but alright. Sister K invited me over for dinner that night. Yes ma’am! Sloppy tacos night. I l-o-v-e sloppy tacos. Plus I get a chance to see the girlies during the week night. Little K started the pre-team in gymnastics and Big K started taking voice lessons. (both of my sisters girls names start with K, go figure) So now little K goes twice a week – two hours each time. I’m really excited for her. I asked her if she saw herself making a career out of it, but she’s only 8, so….Big K is loving voice lessons. This little girl loves to sing. And I think with the right training, she’ll be great.

July 17, 2008 – I just realized I never posted this….so here it is. In all it’s unfinished glory. :o)

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It’s been a while….

since I’ve written anything here. Sometimes I think it’s because I don’t have much to say, but probably it’s more of a “where do I start?” The past month has been interesting. My baby sister moves away without telling anyone, gas continues to rise closer to 4 bucks, groceries (even the cheap brands) are going the same way as gas, my car wants to leak antifreeze like there’s no tomorrow, and I ended up moving out of my apartment and in with my Nana. I thought at 34 you’re supposed to be doing alright and able to take care of yourself? But for this 34 yr old, that isn’t the case. I’m trying to keep on the positive side and realize this is the best thing for both of us. She’s in her 80’s and has lived alone for the past two year since my Papa died. Her house is on a nice street, but not in the best neighborhood. My monthly expenses were more than my monthly income, so the best case scenario – move in with Nana, so I can try and get back on track and she can have someone there to watch out for things. She’s still with it and all that, she just gets lonely. The only thing that isn’t 100% ideal is her yappy ass dog. Why is it everytime I walk in the door, the damn dog barks like it’s the first time he’s seen me? But if you threaten him with a “squirt” (from the water bottle) he calms down a touch. :o)

So I’m now at Nana’s and it hasn’t been bad. Granted I haven’t even been there a full week yet, or maybe today makes a week? Anywho…I’m there and thank the Lord. Because the move about did me in. I lived in an upstairs apartment and it was fucking murder moving this time. I pretty much did it all on my own – although my sweet nieces helped, and Sister K came over one afternoon. I had to borrow my brother’s expedition and while that was a saving grace, have I ever told you how much shit I own? It really should be criminal for one person to have that much stuff. And this time for the first time, I got rid of A LOT of stuff. Almost all of it was donated to the crackheads in the building. I think they were pretty appreciative. I was just thrilled to not have to pack one more piece of junk downstairs. Note to self – when I get my own place again, I DO NOT NEED another set of measuring spoons. Why when in the midst of packing did I come across 5 different sets?!?!? I kept three and gave the other two away. It makes me tired thinking of all the packing, etc.

On other news….my baby sister is still in Texas and while I thought she was going to come home soon, it’s not so. At least not right now. So she says. I wish she was coming home, because I’m worried about her, but I guess she has to figure it all out on her own. She is supposed to be here sometime this week for a visit. I hope that’s true. I really do miss her.

Good news – I’m getting a cell phone tomorrow. (thursday) I must be the only person over 30 and under 80 in America that hasn’t had a cell phone. While I’ve managed to get by without having one, moving in with Nana has made me see the light. Especially since you don’t dare call her house after 10p.m. and I need one so the Red Cross can locate me. I’ve missed several chances to go to fires because they haven’t been able to track me down. :o(

OH and even better news!!!! My Alabama sister came home for a really quick July 4th visit. It was a super short trip, but really fantastic to see her. She has this really cute, short haircut (that looks great on her!) and she seems to be really happy. I’m thrilled for her! Hopefully next time she comes it can be for a longer amount of time. OR maybe I can save my pennies and take a trip there. :o)

Okay – there’s my month in a nutshell…I’m sure something else has happened, but right now I can’t think of it. And I need to get back to work. LOL….Hope you have a great rest of the week.


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